Hello, everyone! Welcome to the blog. My name is Sam, and you’re watching my last semester in the master’s program. This is a safe space for open dialog (and for top-notch memes). Let me know if you have any questions, comments, or concerns.
If you’re interested in checking out my work in the Japanese Studies field, please feel free to visit my main blog here.
As a little introductory/get to know me tidbit, I’ll quickly explain the reason why I chose the blue moon over water as my background. This reasoning is two-fold, and the first reason is more impersonal:
Because it’s something that connects all of us. Every single person on this entire earth has seen the moon (or heard of it, for those who are visually impaired) at some point in their lives; however, the moon is never the same when we see/hear of it. It has different colors, phases, cycles, etc (just like people). It affects the waves of the oceans, which also connect all of the continents together. But, while the moon does connect us, it simultaenously serves as a reminder that each and every one of us is different. We all have different paths, we encounter people of different colors, and no two of us will ever live the exact same life. So when I look at the moon, I know that there are other people out there doing the exact same thing, but in vastly different times and places – this knowing feels sort of like a bond, like me and these other people are the only people in the world and we owe it to each other to keep this bond. The only other time I feel this deep of a connection is when I write and share my work with others, which is exactly what I’m doing in this blog space.
The second reason is very personal:
One of my favorite idols of over ten years, Kim Jong-Hyun of SHINee, committed suicide on December 18, 2017. His music and lyrics kept me going through my own periods of suicide ideation, and so I’ve always felt a very deep connection to him. One of the very last activities he did while he was alive was participate in Blue Night, a radio show during which he always encouraged his listeners and told us not to give up, offering whatever advice he could and quoting words of encouragement from whatever literature or music he was exploring. The SHINee fandom (Shawols) collectively came to associate him with a blue moon, and this imagery became stronger after his death. Now whenever I see or think of the moon, especially a blue moon, I’m reminded not to give up on myself and on my dreams because I’ve worked so hard and I know that he would want better for me. So, I carry on and continue to spread suicide awareness both inside and outside of the fandom with the image of the blue moon. I’ve since tattooed something similar to this picture on my body to carry the moon with me wherever I go, reminding myself that I’m not alone because the moon connects me to him, to my fandom, and (as mentioned above) to everyone else.
Now that you know a little bit about me, I hope you feel comfortable enough to relax and enjoy the ride.
Until next time.